Who next?

I know I'm going to sound like a heathen, or maybe not even a Christian, but I want to assure you all that I am, I'm just really having a hard time right now. But...do you ever feel like God is out to get you? Maybe I'm exaggerating here. Do you ever feel like something is out to get you?? It seems like everytime I turn around something else goes wrong. Or someone else leaves. Now, this is the 3rd person who is leaving since the start of the new year, and it is the 3rd person that I feel really close to. And although she's not leaving until April, and I'm really glad she's in God's will, it doesn't make it any easier. I do think that God is trying to teach me something from this. All these people who have left, or who are going to leave, are people that I really depend on for acceptance and the like. I'm starting to see a pattern. I honestly believe that God is trying to bang into my head that He is there for me, and I'm accepted by Him, and I don't need those other people, although they are special. And the only way I'll learn that is when He takes everyone away, and I only have Him left to fall on. Just pray for me please. This is going to be a hard weekend to listen to God when I'm upset. Pray I'll learn a lot at D-Now, especially about depending on Him.