Team Jacob

As ashamed as I am to admit this, I finally finished reading the book, New Moon. It took me forever to attempt to get through it last time, but seeing as work gets boring sometimes, I actually managed to finish the whole thing in two shifts. It was an okay book, Bella's character just irritates me. Sure, I felt that similar pain from a break up, but jeez, her tactics were a little extreme. I was intrigued to get the book version of the whole Bella/Jacob relationship. Having once been compared to Jacob in an actual relationship, I wanted to see exactly how it was portrayed from Bella's point of view. I was sickened, to say the least. Bella's disgusting insecurities and overwhelming selfish thought process was all too familiar. I am, indeed, just like Jacob. I had someone keep me around merely because they needed someone else's presence, nothing more. I may have deeply loved said person, but my Bella continually toyed with my own heart and emotions, keeping me around simply because it was better than being alone. What kind of sick person does that? What kind of human being sees another in emotional pain, but keeps putting their heart through hell just because they can't function on their own? It's appalling, really. I have never been one to care about the whole Twilight business, but after finishing that book, I am definitely Team Jacob. Why? Because I AM Jacob. And I'm not sure my heart will ever be the same.